And yes I know. I only post when really bad things happen in my life. . . Blah blah blah. I know. But good things happening aren't as interesting, as my sociology teacher said yesterday, good news doesn't sell, bad news and drama sells. It's what's interesting. It's why we watch drama filled TV shows. If everyone lived a perfectly perfect life, no one would care. [But I DID post a nice post in January so BAM! I post good things too.]
So. Things that bug me:
- People who delete people on Facebook who they are legitimate friends with just because they're mad or had some disagreement.
- I mean seriously. We have almost 200 friends in common, do you think I wouldn't notice? Erghh.
- Actually. I'll expand on this. The last two people who have deleted me [that I know of] I was good friends with. . . But they were boys. We all know what happens when boys and girls are close friends, someone develops feelings for the other one, that emotion is not returned, someone gets hurt. One I'll accept, it was my fault. It was a mutual "I dislike you now so let's just never ever talk again."
- But the other guy. . . He deleted me because I didn't return the "love" even when I made it clear forever ago that it wouldn't work? Cool. Beans.
- So now I know. I cannot be friends with boys. Not close ones at least.
- I have two exceptions to this rule in my life. Three actually. For some reason, we work. Maybe it's because we act more like siblings and help each other find love. Or because we've know each other too well and we're meant to have brotherly/sisterly love. Whatever the case, these three boys will be the only exceptions.
- Then there are people who leave and then come back and ruin your thought process for a few days.
- Person in case: The mutual-deletion-of-each-other-man
- It's kind of a fact. He came in and messed things up. I let down my guard and let a new person into my life, so yes, that was my fault. But being manipulated, I'm realizing it's not my fault. [Besides I'm apparently supposed to learn how to not blame myself?] In any case the whole not talking to him for over a month was great. I was happy and have forgiven myself for not being cool.
- But BAM! They come back in to "apologize" and stir up every silly thought I had before. I feel myself slipping into the messed up kid I used to be. But I have God this time around, plus some awesome friends who I'll let help keep me on track. I will not fall into any unhealthy cycle again.
- And finally on things I dislike more than ANYTHING right now: People who can't type.
- What in the heck is going through your mind when u tlk lyk dys?!??!!
- Even as a twelve year old talking online with people. I made sure to use proper spelling, punctuation, capitalization, EVERYTHING so I wouldn't tick off who I was talking to. I was twelve. The people who I see talking like that are college and high school students.
- You guys write papers for school right? How do you make the transition from the English language to pure bad typing?
- Yes, some people have legitimate learning disabilities and have a reason, but my friends who have them type WAY better than my friends who don't.
- I'm tired enough when I get online at the end of the day. I don't feel like deciphering messages from people who don't care enough to TRY. So what I do? I don't respond after awhile, I know it's mean, but so is making my brain work so hard.
- Actually I have a new final thing: I hate how pessimistic and narcissistic I can get when I'm stressed.
Happy note: It's been 36 days since I purged. :)
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